It's been one and a half months and everyday I thought that I am already over you. but why do I still find myself crying, thinking and hoping that you'll still be there for me in times of sickness and by the time I meet death? I know I loved you honestly and stayed true to my promise that I will love you forever and will never leave you. I felt cheated when you decided to go without giving me the chance to prove my worth. It was heartbreaking. It was and it will always be the worst feeling that I had/ have. I do not know when will I let you go completely. I am still wishing that everything will just be erased in an instant because everytime I see something that reminds me of you, it triggers the emotion back and it hurts more than I could imagine.

I still HATE myself for loving you and for letting you break my heart.